At first I wasn't sure if I wanted to be involved in my own project. Did it seem conceited? I ended up going for it, because I was excited about my idea and felt like I genuinely could add value to the OWP! So-here is my story.
This is my path to abundance.
Anxiety. Anger. Angst.
I thought this was supposed to be an awesome time. Why am I struggling so much? Why is he struggling so much?
I spent almost my entire first year of marriage in a fog. It was hard to see reality through the dense, hard-to-breathe-in anxiety I was riddled with every day. I had no idea what I was doing, and my unrealistic expectations were suffocating me quicker than any real fog could. My first year. Full of up and down, and up and down.
What was I to do?
Through my good friends who empathized with me, and then brought me back to reality, I found my option was to fight. To not give in to the all consuming, suffocating, feel-first-and-then-see desperation.
So I read and prayed for hope.
My path to abundance in life was not found in a good and easy upbringing.
It was not found in a good education.
In a happy family.
A good marriage.
These things I cannot fully claim.
Yet they somehow spurred me on to abundance.
The hard and the good.
They always happen at the same time for me.
Through the challenges of life, something beautiful can be found and held on to.